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About me. )

I'm not really sure what else one might need/wish to know about me. Please feel free to subscribe/read my entries, though. You're very welcome.
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attempting again to write a blog... we've all heard that before though!

i'm feeling a lot better than i did the other day with regards to my previous post (livejounal, locked post), which is good. like i said though, it comes and goes. i guess it's just going to take a while for me to accept/get used to the fact that she is gone. at least i did get to say goodbye and i know she knew how much i adored her and i know she thought the world of me.

on a cheerier note, i booked myself a day and a half off work this week, so i've just spent this afternoon shopping with Joely (and with his money, woo!) which was very nice, particularly because it's been really nice and sunny. i've got myself some new colourful, spring-y clothes and new shoes. i also bought some hair dye because my hair really needs a refresh.

now i'm looking forward to three lovely days of rest. i'm really glad i booked the time off because i'm particularly tired this week. initially i wasn't sleeping well because of thoughts of my grandma; and then on monday and tuesday i stayed up late helping Beardy with his dissertation ! he handed it in yesterday and i'm pretty proud of him. obviously i am a somewhat biased and also uneducated eye, but to me it seemed very good so i hope his marks end up reflecting that. he now has just three exams to go until he is finished uni for good! exciting. of course he hasn't looked at any jobs at all yet - he hasn't even sorted out making his contract a grainger a full time one, so i'm a tad concerned. we need a full time wage from him to start building up our wedding fund !

my plans for this weekend are to stay in my pyjamas and hopefully work on some original writing; and get started on the sock monkey i plan to handmake my mum for mother's day.
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things i am thankful for:

my mummy, who works so hard trying to make everyone happy and who i am beginning to admire more than anyone now that i'm old enough to appreciate her efforts
my daddy, who i can't help but idolise most of the time, despite his huge pile o'flaws
my baby sister, giant devil child though she may be
my big brother, who always manages to text me random funny shit just when i need to smile
my amazing grandparents, who have always been there to look after me with oodles and oodles of love
my internet friends, who over the years have meant more to me than 90% of the people i know in real life
rachel, hetty and liz, who (aside from joel) are maybe my favourite non-related-to-me people in the world
buffy the vampire slayer, which may only be a tv show but is amazing and important to me regardless
the ability to read and love books, because i cannot imagine what my life would have been like if i hadn't ever loved to read
christmas decorations, because just glancing over at my christmas tree at this time of year makes me feel warm and happy despite the fact that joel & i have no money to buy each other or anybody else christmas presents this year.
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sharing is caring
for one week, recommend/share:

day one: a song
day two: a picture
day three: a book/ebook/fanfic
day four: a site
day five: a youtube clip
day six: a quote
day seven: whatever tickles your fancy

~ i always say that i couldn't possibly choose a favourite song, that there are too many amazing songs that i love and adore to play favourites. and while this is sort of true, it's also sort of true that here with me by dido is my favourite song above all the others.


also, i got a temp job working as admin in a doctor's surgery place thinger. there was a bit of a mix-up between the temp agency and me and the surgery so today was a bit of a disaster, but i am looking forward to monday.

it is only £6/hour, but for 9-5 that'll add up okay, and it's only for 4-6weeks, which is a pain 'cause it means i'll have to sort out going back on jsa when it's done, but i don't mind because it will also be something more on my cv. plus i have to have particular training for it, so once i have that training i will be suddenly a more attractive employee than someone who doesn't. so yay! the worry and awkwardness of today has really tired me out. i feel ill and achey and tired and just drained, really. thank god i started on a friday so i have the weekend to recover.


in exciting news, the hettster (aka [personal profile] yakyak/[ profile] boho) is coming over tomorrow for awesomeness. she is bringing me a 'spare' touchscreen qwerty phone she has lying around, because apparently she is rich or something, because my phone is broken like a thing that dun't work proper no more. and we are gon chillax and chat and maybe snuggle under quilts and watch films. so that's nice. :)

and then on sunday i'ma wash my hair and do noooothing else. :D


aaand we just ordered domino's for a late but much anticipated tea. omg i hope it gets here quick. they can't be very busy at this time of night so it shouldn't be too long!

see you tomorrow for day two. :)
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done a bit of a revamp of my dreamwidth journal. new layout, new banner & new icons to represent my current love of blake lively and her amazing hair.

i am feeling a bit less sorry for myself today. hurray. thank you to the ppl who commented yesterday. much love. <3333
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I feel so hopeless today. I never thought my life would be like this.


Jul. 25th, 2009 12:46 am
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this post is basically just because i can.

my friends bought me a gorgeous little glass teacup and saucer for my birthday. i have refrained from using it until now because it is so fragile and i am afraid of breaking it. it was on display on a corner unit in my living room, and it was just taunting me, so i christened it yesterday afternoon:

this is from a set of twining's classics that i bought... i am so glad i bought this pack of classics because i had never tasted lady grey before but now i know that it is just gorgeous. this, though, is ceylon, and it too is quite tasty, although i did put a bit too much sugar in. this was taken yesterday afternoon when i was having a cup of tea while reading a book.

the book, obviously, is feet of clay by terry pratchett. i have read it many times before; the Watch ones are my favourites because i adore Sam Vimes with a passion. this is a shiny brand new copy, though; i spent £25 that i don't have on brand new Watch books the other day because when i asked my parents to bring the terry pratchett books up, my dad sneakily kept the ones that belonged to him, and sadly this was most of the Watch ones. So I've started rereading the Watch ones in order; i'm just finishing Jingo now, and moving onto the Fifth Elephant this evening. The Fifth Elephant is probably my favourite after Night Watch. <3

aaand this is a teapigs lemongrass tea temple, taken about 10 minutes ago. along with the pretty cup, the girls bought me two packets of tea temples from teapigs - english breakfast, and lemongrass. i thought i'd have this one now because its quite late, and this is caffeine-free, and its also meant to aid with digestion, which i suppose is always good. i put a teaspoon of honey in it, because even though i will gladly turn down a dessert in favour of a sandwich, i enjoy my tea sweet. and this was just lovely - just like lemsip but without the prerequisite of feeling manky and ill. i'd definitely recommend it.

i may post some more teas because i have a large collection that need drinking and i have a shiny glass teacup and a camera. so yes. :D

in other news i am ridiculously excited about a brand new rpg my friends and i have set up. it seems to already have had a really positive impact on friendships which long since became strained and/or distant, and i just. well, it's really making me very happy at the moment. hopefully it will continue to do so, although it is early days yet.

also, i am ridiculously stressed about money. I think I have less than £600 in my bank account; my rent (£338) comes out next saturday and i am still jobless and have a pittance income from my benefits.

i got a phone call today from a job i applied for at the DWP. it is for an executive assistant so i doubt i will get it because that sounds quite big, but i have been shortlisted to go and take the numeracy and literacy tests that they require followed by an interview. the tests are next saturday (1st aug), and from what i can tell i presume that the interview will be the following week. i am pretty nervous really. it would pay me well enough to be able to save up for my postgraduate, which i desperately want to do. and, like i said, i am just terrified about my finances at the moment; i don't have enough coming in to cover outgoings really so a job would be fantastic please. however, judging by my parents' stagnant 'careers' in the dwp, it is entirely possible or even likely that it will be a horrible job that i will hate and stuff.

but i suppose it is also possible that i might enjoy it and be brilliant at it and it will be great etc.

i think a lot of the problem i have is that i honestly don't feel that i am qualified to do anything. why would anyone give me a job? particularly one with a responsible sounding name like 'executive assistant', lol. i am spectacularly useless. i hope i can do it.

to make financial matters worse, aaron and zara-louise are coming back tomorrow and we are going out for a meal for zara's birthday. while obviously i am happy to have them, and really happy that they had such a good time when they stayed a few weeks ago that they wanted to come back so soon - the restaurant they have booked (babycream on the albert dock) is pretty expensive, and then i think they want to go out afterwards so that is another worry. just, argh. i hate spending money on going out drinking, just because it is such a waste. i don't enjoy going out and to add insult to injury it generally costs a small fortune.

and i'm going to have to shave my legs for the occassion.
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shiny new dreamwidth layout, hurrah!

i watched the duchess earlier. <3
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Hello there online journal :) :) i am FINALLY back online, but it's going to take me a while to get back into the swing of things, so this really is an update to let you know that I am here and hopefully an actual update with words and things will follow within the next few days. :)

So yes, hello again! I'm glad to be back.
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I have so many things I've thought about putting in this update that now I can't remember half of them, so it's probably going to be a bit (or a lot) disjointed. Sorry to anyone who's reading. :)

Essay/Uni talk )

I spent a bit of time this evening tweaking the css for my new layout, and I'm quite pleased with it as it stands right now. A link to the journal I got the orignal codes from is on my journal info. And speaking of the journal info, I found a way around the fact that the html in my bio was somehow hiding all of the main navigation links in the Dreamiwdth site scheme - I changed it to a different scheme! The one called 'Celerity', I think it is. I like it quite a lot, and it's fixed my problem. My bio html still isn't showing as it should, but at least I have navigation links again.

...I'm so used to writing on Word that I keep hitting ctrl+s every now and then to save. >.< That's pretty annoying. Also my hands are killing me. :|

What else what else did I have to say? Oh yes, I've decided that I'm going to have a 'poetry sunday', probably on the first sunday of every month, although I've missed it this month so maybe I'll do it next week too. Basically I intend to post a poem or some songlyrics that I really like, for no other purpose than that... I really like them and want to share them. With songlyrics I'll probably upload the song. I'll most likely make a few comments regarding why I like said poetry, too. So, you have been warned. Avoid my journal on sundays. ;)

I'm pretty sleepy now, actually. I just have a few more things I meant to say.

Flat/Moving talk )

I am pretty knackered now and can't remember much else that I wanted to say. I have this niggling feeling that someone has commented to me somewhere on Dreamwidth and I haven't replied, which is pretty annoying. And I know for a fact that there are several entries on my reading page that I really wanted to comment on but didn't have time at the time, and don't have the energy to find now. I'm really sorry, but I have been reading all the entires of people I'm subscribed too. I've just been super-busy and therefore not up to much commenting. I'll get better next week, after my exam, I promise!

Finally, one of my LJ friends just posted this awesome meme which I really had to steal:

Ten Words or Less Meme
Write 10 different categories of fic, each in 10 words or less.

1. Angst:
"Booth, you're gonna be fine. Come on, Booth. No." - Fin.

2. AU:
"FBI, Special Agent Temperance Brennan. This is Dr. Seeley Booth."

3. Crack!Fic:
Seeley read the namebadge on the hot Hooters girl: 'Temperance'.


"Bones, is Zack Gormorgon's assistant?" "Yes. Zack is my assistant."

4. Crossover:
Booth stared as the wooden stake pierced the vampire's chest.

5. First Time:
Booth's fingers brushed across her lips. "We're not just partners, Bones." (eleven words, sorry!)

6. Fluff:
"Y'know, Bones. I think we're going to grow old together."

7. Humor:
(I feel that my two for crack gives me a free pass. :| )

8. Hurt/Comfort:
"Booth. Let me help you."

9. Smut:
She certainly doesn't fear physical intimacy, Booth thinks.

10. UST:
He sees her everyday. Eventually, he thinks, I'll tell her.

Er. In case you can't tell, I chose Bones. It is a lot harder than it looks! Especially when you're used to writing stories with quite a lot of detail/imagery in. 10 words isn't enough. >.<

This entry is prolly littered with typos, sorry. I'll fix it tomorrow. But now - my bed is calling.

ETA: After seeing the length of this post, I decided to cut it. To save your eyes! :)

ETA2: Wow, I'm pretty annoyed. I just submitted the 10 mini-fics thing to a Bones community and my post was rejected. The reasons they gave were:
Your entry was rejected because it did not have the mandator fanfic header, and contained spoilers. Remember that both season 3 and 4 are considered spoilers in this community and require warnings before the cut if they are used.

1) How on earth would I do one of those fanfiction headers for the above 'fics'? Would anybody else have thought it would be necessary?

2) I PUT A CUT saying 'I don't think there's any spoilers, but I'll cut it just in case. :)' Those were the exact words in my cut text!

I mean, what the hell. They clearly didn't actually read my post.
thethirdbar: (butterfly 2)
I just downloaded Fuck It (I Don't Want You Back) by Eamon and F.U.R.B by Frankee!

Omgz, who remembers this music sensation??

Bizarre, also, that I found them by Wiki'ing Mickey Harte (2003 Irish entry to Eurovision).

God, Wikipedia's amazing.

Also, sorry for the major spamming I am doing today. :|
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that zombies are my biggest fear.

What's yours?

I'm serious though, I'm terrified of them. Not 'undead' zombies because I am pretty sure that they aren't real. But zombies like in Resident Evil or 28 Days Later, ones caused by human cock-ups and viruses and shit, they terrify me. What if they happen?

Have any of you ever seen Blast From The Past with Brendan Fraser in it? Basically, when Joel and I grow up and build our own house, I want a bomb shelter like the one in the film, not in case of nuclear war (...although admittedly, it'll be handy for that too; nuclear winter is also pretty high on my list of 'ways i don't want to die'. On that note, my dad made me watch Threads when I was about 11. Way to parent, dad.) but for when the zombies come.

They give me nightmares. :(

I do love Resident Evil, though.
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Come on, guys. While I'm always, of course, deliriously happy to gain new friends, I really kind of need you to comment and say hi when you add me to your circle! Pretty please.

Unrelatedly, I wish there were more mood theme options. I have had a paid account on lj for so long that I am totally used to having custom moodthemes, and it is pretty weird not to have anymore. I don't really like any of dreamwidth's options. I miss Bruce's Lil Smileys on greatestjournal. That was my favourite moodtheme.

Expect a proper update on Monday afternoon. Current headspace is not very updatey. Essay, argh.
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Pictures For Sad Children is always such an adorable comic. I just got this new one in my google reader and it's just lovely.

Also, I just mistyped 'google' as 'goodle' and now I really wish that it was called that.

My essay is moving along a little faster now, which is nice.

Here, have a song. Running Up That Hill, by Placebo. While I enjoy Kate Bush quite a lot, I personally find this cover version to be much nicer than the original. If you haven't heard it before, please give it a try.
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I'm finding it pretty amusing how large a percentage of the dreamwidth journals I come across are using this layout. I mean, it's a really lovely layout, especially considering how quickly [personal profile] gossymer must have whipped it up, but it's still pretty funny seeing it literally* everywhere. I am pretty excited to see more and more layouts start coming in, and maybe when my exams are over I'll start having a play around with the new CSS and things to see what I can come up with myself.

I have been faffing around with my profile, and while I'm quite happy with what I've got up there there's also something wrong with it in that it's messing up the way the actual Dreamwidth site appears. On the 'known issues' page it does mention something to do with html coding in profiles screwing things up and that they're working on it, so hopefully it will get cleared up soon. But until then it's going to really really annoy me to not be able to see any navigation links from my profile page. It is going to get pretty frustrating. I did try a different profile code which worked absolutely fine but which also wasn't as pretty as the current one, so I think it must be something specific to the html in this particular coding. However my head's too fuzzy at the moment to be able to concentrate on coding my own tables so I'm just using one I found somewhere else and I don't have the energy to attempt to go through it and pinpoint the problem. So if I want to check my inbox I am just going to have to do it through someone else's profile page for a while. :\

It's really sort of exciting to be here right at the beginning. I believe that I cancelled my recurring payments to my lj in September after the last payment came out, so probably I will see how well my new resolution to use this journal goes, and maybe see how well I can build up a community of friends and accquaintances and then I'll think about purchasing a paid account here. Ideally of course I would like to be sure about it before the discounted prices are removed, 'cause at the moment it's really cheap. :D But at the moment the only paid benefit that I'm likely to get any use out of are the extra userpics and until they've rolled out some more features I'd rather not risk it. :)

My Modern American Fiction essay is still just behaving ridiculously in that I have written about 100 more words. *sigh* I am really just hopeless. My computer chair is just so uncomfortable so my bum is constantly numb and tingly, which isn't pleasant. My tummy is still hurting a lot. I didn't get to sleep until after 5am last night because I was in so much pain, which has never happened to me before. :( I am currently sitting with a hot water bottle stuck up my top, haha, and a cup of Earl Grey on hand, and I am going to attempt to get back to work after writing this entry.

I feel a little better because I think I have decided what I'm going to do for my Language and Literature essay now, though. I already knew that the topic I was planning on writing on was metaphor, and it was just finding a suitable extract from a book to analyse. I was going to go with To Kill A Mockingbird because it has such obvious uses of metaphor in it but then I was worried that I might struggle to find a particularly metaphor-rich extract to use, and I didn't want to end up falling out with the book because I love it and I don't want this stupid stupid module to ruin my love for books. But for my MAF essay I'm doing The Bell Jar (and Fahrenheit 451), and it occurred to me to use that! There's several really good bits in it that I think I could be able to use. It would be easier if I knew if we could use several extracts from one particular text, which I might end up doing anyway, but there's that one bit about the fig tree of choices that Esther imagines which I think will be good, hopefully. If all else fails I might just resort to whacking down a bit of Bleak House and doing my essay on that, which I really don't want to do. Urgh.

Joel has his last exam tomorrow and then he will have finished his first year of University! Haha, I'm so proud, bless him. He does have to do a resit in the summer because he failed one of his modules in the first semester, but he's done really really well on everything else so far - like, getting marks of 70+ on everything - which is great, especially considering the fact that he's also holding down a part time job which takes up a lot of his time and energy. I am seriously amazed by the amount of work he's had to do though. He has like a billion modules per semester and they all have loads of different elements which contribute towards the final grade - exams, assignments, essays, group work, practical work. In my first year I had practically nothing to do in comparison... or maybe it's just that I really didn't do a lot of work in my first year. :p

I'm not hungry at all but for some reason I am craving toast and/or chocolate. Hmm.

God, my bum hurts. This chair is ridiculous. :(

*not literally

eta: what, I can't use html tags? How do I italicise!? *hunts through faqs*

eta2: oh wait, my bad. I had a bad tag in there, oops. Fixed now!
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I've found the most interesting community. [community profile] stayintheroom, a community that posts general prompts to inspire original writing (well, writing in my case, but also drawings, poetry, etc - basically any form of art). I've just been skimming through it and all the prompts are so interesting and creative, they've really given me some ideas. I'm really hoping that I'll be able to use this community to start writing again.

I believe it does have a livejournal counterpart, but I've never seen it before. I suppose that's another of the joys of such a new site as this; it's much easier to discover things you're interested in, in a way, because everything's still new and easy to find. :p

Anyway, it's past 2:30am, and I haven't written anything on my essay for hours and hours. I think that part of the reason is that I feel like 5pm on Friday is still very far away in terms of when I usually write my essays. Technically I still have plenty of time to write this essay, and so I can't get into the frame of mind where I need to write it. However, that's all well and good for this essay, but I also have one due in the following Monday which is not a literature essay and which therefore I'm going to find a lot more difficult and time-consuming to write. I have to find appropriate texts and criticisms to reference, find an extract to study and all sorts of other things that I have only done on one other essay and therefore am not very comfortable with. Literature essays I can generally bang out quite quickly once I focus - choose my texts, choose my topic, fit the texts to the topic, use clever wording to make them relevant, throw in a few quotations from journals and things, and I'm done. The language essay requires subheadings and contents and appendices and is an altogether different kettle of fish.

Tomorrow I am going to try - really try - to get some work done. I might have to resort to using internet explorer instead of firefox. The problem with firefox is that I have open several permanent tabs that I don't like to close for various reasons, eg. some are download lists that I need and other things and closing any of them would make all the others out of sync. This is all well and good for my general browsing purposes, but when I am attempting to do work it is far too easy to get distracted by the 'fun' tabs when instead I should be focusing on the 'work' tabs. Which is where all my good intentions to work went both today and yesterday. So tomorrow I will use IE, and make sure the only tabs which are open are ones relevant to my essay.

Another factor which is generally not helping with today's work endeavour is the ridiculous cramps I am having. It is pretty unusual for me to be suffering this much so I guess that even though I don't really feel stressed my body obviously disagrees and is reacting to the pressure I am under. This afternoon I have gone through a packet of ibuprofen practically (whereas I can usually stick it out without taking any or at least only taking one dose) and still want to just curl up and be cuddled (and maybe have more pills). Sadly there is no Joel here to give me cuddles, so I'm having to settle for a hot water bottle and some dairy milk.

But now, to bed. Hopefully everything will be brighter and shinier and more productive in the morning. It is May Day tomorrow, after all. Surely productivity should happen on such an upbeat-sounding day as May Day.

Night night.
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31st March 2011 - unstickied. You write a biography when you're nearly 21, then come back to it when you're nearly 23 and see if you want to keep it right at the top of all your entries!

Actually, seeing as this is a new journal in a new place, I guess I'll write an introduction for anyone who happens to stumble along.

So, here's a (not so) brief summary of me & my life:

Siobhán )

Regarding my circle 'policy': while I intend this journal to be largely public, I may sometimes restrict access on any overly personal posts. Additionally, I intend to keep all my original writing access-only, simply for protection.

Please feel free to subscribe to me if you wish. If you're interested in gaining access, simply leave me a comment letting me know who you are, where you've come from, and why you're interested and I'll probably be more than willing to add you.
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So, Dreamwidth seems like an interesting prospect. Ever one for the bandwagon, I've hopped right on. It might be nice, now I'm graduating from Uni and therefore presumably becoming a grown-up, to start actually keeping a journal. And lj, much as I love it, I just don't think I'm ever going to be able to keep up a proper journal there. There's too much... stuff in association with it. Even though I constantly have a tab open for lj, it's not the same place that it used to be for me. Too many memories and friendships broken by time and entries whose meaning I don't remember anymore mean that I don't have the inspiration to update that I used to. To be quite honest livejournal tends to make me pretty sad/nostalgic. But Dreamwidth is kind of perfect in that it's somewhere completely new but at the same time it allows me to crosspost my updates to lj so that I won't be neglecting my flist and so that I won't have to feel like I've 'left' lj.

Here's to a new start, perhaps.

Now, unfortunately, I have to try and finish writing two 4000 word essays, one of which currently stands at 102 words, and one at 0, by the 8th and 11th of May respectively, and then revise for my final exam of my undergraduate university career, which is on the 15th of May.

And then redo my CV and go hunting through the urban wilderness for some form of employment. Hurrah.

I just want it to be the 16th of May. I can't wait until I don't have to think about University anymore. For some reason I am really excited for this whole employment prospect, even though I have no clue what I'm doing. I don't think I'm going to get any of the graduate trainee librarian jobs that I've applied/am applying for, which means I'm going to have to spend the next year working somewhere ridiculous like ASDA, and beyond that I don't know how I'm going to raise the £4000+ I need for my postgraduate degree. I just, I'm moving in with Joel and it will be maybe a relief to have a job and go to work and come home and curl up on the settee with a cup of tea in the flat I share with the man I love. Once I have found a job with which to pay the rent, it will be a few months of pressure-free living until I have to start thinking about my postgrad. It will be nice.

Unfortunately it means that I have absolutely no motivation to do any work because I am so close to the end that I can't concentrate on anything else. Hence the teeny tiny word count, and the fact that I am writing the longest journal entry I have written in a long time. And the fact that I just set up a Dreamwidth account, and the fact that I'm playing on Restaurant City on Facebook.

It's nearly my birthday. I'm going to buy myself, with help from my parents and hopefully grandparents, a new pc. I'm so excited. Justin, poor baby, is very tired and old. He wheezes a lot when I attempt to open more than three programs. I guess his time is over.

March 2012


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